The Lord’s Hand
photo courtesy of Will
I wonder how often I try to run faster than I have strength. I wonder how many have tread my path before. I’m thinking I need to slow down just a bit. I find that my Heavenly Father always knows what I need. I, on the other hand, just think I know what I need. At least I’m aware that my competency, when it comes to what I need to learn and grow, is left wanting. So when things I think I need don’t work out, I have come to accept that those are not what I need at the present moment. I can feel my spirit yearning to grow even though my logical brain screams(maybe more whines) at me, “But the stretching and growing hurts. It won’t be easy.” Then again anything worthwhile in life is never easy. If life were easy it won’t be hard, right? It seems trite, but it doesn’t make it any less true.
Speaking of truths…”Yes, life is a test-of many things. But at the risk of sounding simplistic, may I suggest that the mortal experience is largely about vision-our vision of ourselves and our ultimate Big Finish. And vision is determined by faith. The firmer our faith in Jesus Christ, the clearer our vision of ourselves and what we can ultimately achieve and become.” -Sheri Dew
We won’t be getting our little firework like we thought this 4th of July. I’m not upset that I already told everyone. I don’t have any regrets. I wanted to share the joy when we found out we were going to have a baby and I now want to share the peaceful feeling and spirit that I feel. This is the way it was supposed to be. There is a time and a place for everything…and that was not our time or place. I’m okay with that.
Oh, I’m so sorry you have to go through this. I hope you are ok and we are praying for you guys. I really admire you gaining such good perspective so quickly. You’re so strong! Love you!
December 4th, 2009 at 9:08 amI’m so sorry for your loss, Jess. I can’t imagine how painful this is for you and your family. I’ll be keeping you in my prayers. I know God will comfort you through the grief and bless you throughout the journey you’re on. I’m here if you ever need to talk.
December 4th, 2009 at 9:09 amsorry to hear the news. I found when Chris and I went through similar situations there was comfort in going to the temple. Hope you feel ok and remember to take it easy for a little while: physically and emotionally. It will also help the healing.
love ya!
December 4th, 2009 at 9:27 amYou’re so good. When we went through this I prayed that we could have a year of “no growing”. Yes, me and my lack of faith. Growth and learning does hurt and my heart hurts for you.
December 4th, 2009 at 9:38 amI am so sorry! It is amazing how we receive so much comfort in the truths we know. I am glad it has brought you peace!
December 4th, 2009 at 9:54 amI’m sorry to hear that. We’ll keep you in our prayers. We miss hanging out with you guys!
December 4th, 2009 at 11:29 amI’m sorry for your loss. Your attitude is amazing, and you are right. I also struggle with letting go and having faith in Heavenly Father’s plan for me.
December 4th, 2009 at 12:12 pmI am so sorry to hear
I am grateful for your example of faith. I had no idea that this is what was going on when I emailed you.
December 4th, 2009 at 12:15 pmI’m so sad to hear about the loss of your baby. My third pregnancy ended at 13 weeks. I hope you will continue to be blessed with comfort and peace.
December 4th, 2009 at 1:32 pmI’m so sorry you guys are going through this. I love you inspired words and your outlook on the situation. You are truly a pilar of strength and light. Our prayers and thoughts are with you and your family.
December 4th, 2009 at 3:39 pmGrow on, Jessica. You are an incredible woman. I wish I knew the right thing to say. Definitely grateful for the knowledge of eternal families. I hope you continue to feel peace.
December 4th, 2009 at 5:01 pmMy heart is with you Jessica. We experienced our loss one December and it was a very hard Christmas. You are blessed with a wonderful attitude!
December 5th, 2009 at 10:20 amJessica, I’m so sorry. You are an amazing person with such incredible strength and faith. I admire you. I am so thankful you feel peace. That always helps. I’m thinking of you and praying for you guys!
December 5th, 2009 at 11:24 amI’m so sorry to hear what you’re going through. What strength and faith you have! You’ll be in my prayers!
December 5th, 2009 at 9:25 pmBeautiful thoughts and picture. I’m so sorry for your loss. You have a wonderful outlook on life. Sending you hugs….
December 5th, 2009 at 10:06 pmI was so sorry to hear about your baby. Thank you for the beautiful thoughts you shared with us. We got your Christmas card in the mail and I loved it! I really liked your clever idea of using the picture frames. We miss your family and are hoping to make a trip out to San Diego soon!
December 6th, 2009 at 8:49 pmThank you all for your kind words. I really appreciate the comfort. It makes all the difference when others help ease our minds and our burdens. Thank-you!
December 7th, 2009 at 1:19 pmOh, sweetie…i do feel your sadness, your wishing of what was there….only because I have experienced it also. You have such a positive attitude, and it is okay to mourn what you had and to look forward to what will come again for you and your growing family…love ya..
December 9th, 2009 at 10:07 am