photo courtesy of Will

I wonder how often I try to run faster than I have strength.  I wonder how many have tread my path before.  I’m thinking I need to slow down just a bit.  I find that my Heavenly Father always knows what I need.  I, on the other hand, just think I know what I need.  At least I’m aware that my competency, when it comes to what I need to learn and grow, is left wanting.  So when things I think I need don’t work out, I have come to accept that those are not what I need at the present moment.  I can feel my spirit yearning to grow even though my logical brain screams(maybe more whines) at me, “But the stretching and growing hurts.  It won’t be easy.”  Then again anything worthwhile in life is never easy.  If life were easy it won’t be hard, right?  It seems trite, but it doesn’t make it any less true.

Speaking of truths…”Yes, life is a test-of many things.  But at the risk of sounding simplistic, may I suggest that the mortal experience is largely about vision-our vision of ourselves and our ultimate Big Finish.  And vision is determined by faith.  The firmer our faith in Jesus Christ, the clearer our vision of ourselves and what we can ultimately achieve and become.” -Sheri Dew

We won’t be getting our little firework like we thought this 4th of July.  I’m not upset that I already told everyone.  I don’t have any regrets.  I wanted to share the joy when we found out we were going to have a baby and I now want to share the peaceful feeling and spirit that I feel.  This is the way it was supposed to be.  There is a time and a place for everything…and that was not our time or place.  I’m okay with that.